thefooo.

This is the part where I hate the most.
I hate my life. who cares? no one could ever understand myself.
Here I am again talking with  myself in the middle of the road.
I dont care much about anything but one thing's for sho
i hate myself for being like this and i hate myself for not being understood by anyone
even my family. So here i am hiding what i am  feeling.
i really really suck. no one would ever appreciate a guy like me.
what the hell i'm doing here. i dont belong here.
this sucks. more than this many people would think about this as a shit.
as an overreacting shit about life. well i accept that. sorry.
sorry about everything.
my life's a mistake.
this sucks.
i dont have any point. i wish i could bring myself home.
i dunno where i am right now. i dont care about this raging vehicles towards me.
i wish i could fade away.
feeling dont have any reasons at all.
i suck at everything.
no one would care about it.
i suck that's it. sorry. :|

Shandelzare

Actually I've posted this way back before. But got to place it here for my friend.
So there I got to think of my other friend's story about his ex and what happened. Reading his ex's blog which he shared to me.
I come to think about being bitter with ex-partners or whatever or being bitter to the "newone" of your ex.

Some actually wants revenge to what happened.
Actually I also had this feeling, but how can I take revenge with someone i loved? easy as that. Anyways, getting revenge on your Ex will bring you instant satisfaction but do little for your happiness.

There is just an ugliness to it that can change your personality.
Your obsession is founded in the idea you seem to be the only one hurting after the breakup.
What you really need to do is take care of your own feelings and let your Ex go.

If you are interested in how to quit hurting then read this.
It is understandable how you must feel right now.
You got dumped and it doesn't seem to bother them or sort of.
That just adds to the frustration you feel.

You want a quick cure, some satisfaction for how you feel, and you want your Ex to feel as bad as you do.
Truth is that seeking revenge is not going to guarantee you'll get what you were expecting and the best thing to do is to work on your broken heart, moving on, and one day you'll be happy with some one who won't hurt you like your Ex did.

That will be a better feeling then getting revenge now.
Taking out your revenge now you will shackling yourself like a prisoners of your past! This holds you back from experiencing your true Potential as a lover and a person.

You end up carrying that great weight of shame upon your shoulders, and the burdens upon your back.
The grudges and revenge reek havoc in your mind and the ball chained to your leg impedes you growing as a person. Only you hold the power that will let you grow and one of the keys that can set you free but this revenge can take that power from you.

It is easy to feel isolated now that the relationship is over.
You are suffering from the emotional injury left over from the breakup.
It makes you want your Ex to hurt like you do or maybe just get his or her attention.

What you need is to stop yourself from thinking that way.
Get out and go places you never could when you were with your Ex.
Get with friends and talk to them that is what they are there for.
Do it a little bit at a time.

It won't seem like you are making much progress at first but keep trying because the pain will go away.
The satisfaction is only temporary when you try getting revenge on your Ex.
When people obsess over something they seem to over think things because it is constantly on their minds.

You end up believing that revenge is the only way you are going to feel better.
What you really need is to check yourself before you wreck yourself and become a prisoner of the same revenge that was meant for your Ex.

Pursuit of happiness

The pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.

The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like  programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors; like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips  just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about.

Wake Up.

I dream sometimes about flying. It starts out like I’m running really really fast and I’m like super human. And the terrain starts to get really rocky and steep. And then I’m running so fast that my feet aren’t even touching the ground and I’m floating. And it’s like this amazing, amazing realness. I’m free. I’m safe. Then I realize, I am completely alone. And then I wake up.

Peaceful Solitude

As time flows
I refute life's intrinsic woes
and commute to someplace no one goes
as crowded places don't suit
one who knows
peaceful solitude

Happiness

Happiness is always possible and if you let happiness into your life, it will come.

Happiness has correlations with sorrow and that you cannot control when it appears into your life.

Sometimes it can make you lose hope when you feel happiness is 'gone for good' though it is only 'gone for now.'

Don't wait for happiness to come for you, because if you wait for something to come to you and spend so long dedicated to a singular idea, you may miss happiness when it actually passes by.

The same if you're stuck with feeling sad, there's no chance to allow happiness in.

Happiness may also come through enduring a lot of pain but then when the time came you surpassed the pain it'll be wonderful and worthwhile.