"The Greatest Irony of Love"

Just read this. This might give you some insights. ;)

The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger.

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What's important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not apart of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you; that's why it's called falling in love, because you don't need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person if you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.
To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain.
Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.

yung may...

yung may babati sayo ng good morning.

yung may nagtatanong sayo kung kumaen ka na.

yung may nagpapaalam sayo.

yung may laging kumakamusta sayo.

yung may mangungulit sayo pero ngingitian ka at yayakapin bigla.

yung may nagbibigay sayo ng random sweet kisses.

yung may napagsasabihan ka ng problema.

yung may napaglalabasan ka ng sama ng loob.

yung may tatanggap sa kahit anong reklamo mo.

yung may sasama sayo kung saan mo gusto pumunta.

yung may nagtatampo sayo kasi may nakaligtaan ka.

yung may pinapangiti ka dahil sa ngiti mo.

yung may nag-aalala sayo kapag hindi ka maayos.

yung may yayakap sayo kapag nilalamig ka.

yung may nagbibigay sayo ng mga simpleng bagay na sobrang nakakasaya.

yung may nagmomotivate sayo.

yung may nag cheecheer sayo.

yung may laging nagpapaalala sayo ng mga bagay bagay.

yung may nagtitiyaga sayo kahit hindi ka niya maintindihan.

yung may laging nandyan para sayo.

yung may naggogoodnight sayo.

yung may nagpapangiti sayo kahit busangot mukha mo.

yung may tatawa sa mga napaka korni mong jokes.

yung may magpupunas ng mga luha mo.

yung may nag-aalaga sayo.

yung may nasasandalan ka.

yung may nagmamahal sayo.

Note

Why can't I fight this feeling, is there any way to endure this loneliness that consumes me inside.
I always whisper all the things I feel for you but deep down I know I want it to be heard.

Why can't I say it that deep down I want to give you. One perfect slow dance, the way you want me to.
I won't say a word nor tell you sweet words, I will just hold you as if it's my last.

I have you but yet I don't, you are close but yet so far away.
Oh I'm just too weak to face the truth hat I love you,
I love you 'cause I'm afraid we can never be.

who cares anyway.

The past few months have been quite grueling because I feel like I am starting to lose grip of who I am..

...

But no one would listen 'Cause no one else cared

From the inside.

Bite my tongue, right now the perfect time
Do anything to make her happy
Even if it means my being miserable
As long as she's loving life
Thought of a smile not being there
My inner feelings would be shattered
A piece of glass puncturing my heart
I'm bleeding from the inside
I will be able to sleep at night
With a smile upon her face
As long as she's perfectly fine
I hope she's perfectly fine
And some day she will be mine

Papel

Ituring mo ako bilang papel.

Kung gusto mo ng kausap, isulat mo sa akin ang kwento mo, makikinig ako.

Kung nagagalit ka, lukutin mo ako at hindi ako magrereklamo.

Kung malungkot ka't naiiyak, gamitin mo akong pamunas ng mga luha mo.

Pero kung dumating man s punto na di mo na ako gusto, wag mo naman ako basta lang itapon...

Dahil pwede mo pa kong sunugin,para lang magbigay liwanag sa madilim mong mundo.

Hehehe.

He awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful person, to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was, happy.

And during the course of each day his heart would descend from his chest into his stomach.

By early afternoon he was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was right for him, and by the desire to be alone.

By evening he was fulfilled: alone in the magnitude of his grief, alone in his aimless guilt, alone even in his loneliness.

I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others--the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. I am not sad. I am not sad.

Because his life had unlimited potential for happiness, insofar as it was an empty white room. He would fall asleep with his heart at the foot of his bed, like some domesticated animal that was no part of him at all.

And each morning he would wake with it again in the cupboard of his rib cage, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping.

And by the midafternoon he was again overcome with the desire to be somewhere else, someone else, someone else somewhere else. I am not sad.

Candles

You’re lifting me up
In a world we’re thinking of
But the roads to us are broken
To save you is enough
Heaven knows each day is tough
I’m the only one who’s hoping
Your eyes still say they’re sharp
Your words they break my heart
You wake up the sense of sound
As you walk into this room
I watch the way you move…
You are the best I’ve seen of all
You are the greatest endeavor
You are the life that I believe
Life that I have lived
You are the light that shed my tears
Fuel the fire that burns my fears
You are the love that I believe
Love that I have lived.
You make me alive
Set me far to the other side
Turn the pieces into something
To sail and decide
On the calm breeze of the tide
oh, the heaven now is watching
Every time I hear the magic feels what love reveal is the pain it heals,
Inside of me is watching at you!

-December Avenue

Hymn.

I don't wanna find someone I can live with, I just want to find someone that I can't live without.

I'm not looking for another saviour, I'm just searching for a little lamb that I can hold to keep so safe and warm.

I can't wait, for those sleepless nights, where only the bottle seems to calm the little beast.
Daydream now of your dear embrace, where we lie, lie in the still of morning face to face.

Dreaming face to face.

This is a hymn, a hymn for her.
To the one that I'll adore.
So sing your hymn, a hymn for her.

Is this too much to ask?

“Masaya ako para sayo :)”

“Masaya ako para sayo :)”
Ito na siguro yung pinakamalaking kasinungalingan na lagi nating sinasabi sa taong mahal natin kapag tayo ay nagpaparaya. Gustuhin man natin na tayo ang maging dahilan kung bakit siya masaya ay hindi pwede. Minsan darating talaga yung pagkakataon na kailangan mong pakawalan yung taong mahal mo para lamang maging masaya siya. Ayaw mo din naman siguro na maging kayo nga pero hindi naman siya masaya di ba? Masakit man, kailangan mo tong tanggapin. Kahit na para bang dinudurog ang puso mo sa tuwing makikita mo silang masaya sa piling ng isa’t isa.

Poetic Tragedy

The cup is not half empty as pessimists say

As far as he's sees, nothing's left in the cup

A whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge

Since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up 

A singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere

He gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....

Is just a tragedy 

So he voyages in circles

Succeeds getting nowhere

And submits to the substance

That first got him there 

Then in violent, frustration, he cries out to God or just no one

Is there a point to this madness and all that he was....

Is just a tragedy 

He feels alone

His heart in his hand 

He's alone

He feels alone

I feel.... 

Then on that last day he breaks

And he stood tall

And he yelled... and he takes his life

//The Used

TooLateTheHero.

I'll sing every song I know
if it will make you want to comeback
And then I'll say
That I missed you
And these words
They'll convince you
I poured through every song I wrote
Every line that I've cried every note
that was spilt with this pen
And every line in every song,
they all seemed to come out wrong,
Until your song
So let's sing it all night long
And I could call you bebe all the time
And you'd whisper in my ears,
you'd say, "I missed you boy"
So sing it over again,
and over again.

Who are you now?

Don't wake me up if I'm sleeping this life away
Tell me that I'll never be good enough
Sometimes it hurts to think it could really be that way
It won't be that way

I'm tired and I'm lost
I don't wanna be found
I put my heart and my soul
And strength in this now

So forgive me 'cause I won't forget that
Yeah, this world has changed me
So you know when you ask me

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don't go back to the start
I'm asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won't you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
We're gonna work it out

Yeah, yeah

Don't, don't, don't wake me up
'Cause I hate who I am today
So come on, come on
And just take, take, take what you want
Is it now what we're living for?
We're always wanting more

You made me hate my own reflection
Question every choice I make
So I could try to be perfect
But I will try to be fake

So forgive me 'cause I really could care less that
This world has changed me
So you know when you ask me

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don't go back to the start
I'm asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won't you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
And sometimes you really live, you've gotta try
We can change it all together, in the end you're gonna find
That what we felt in our hearts was real the whole time
When you open up your eyes, I hope that you find
Who you are, who you are

Who are you now?
Who are you now?

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don't go back to the start
I'm asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won't you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
We're gonna work it out


//Sleeping With Sirens

Lunatic

The depths of a mans soul can not be measured in a manor of meters and fathoms; but rather, it is in my opinion, only quantified by his proximity to haven and hell.

It was in such a state I ushered myself passed the town tavern, bursting at the seams with the sounds laughter and drunken piano playing.

Had it only been a different night, a different place, a different kind of man passing by the threshold of that innocent pub, the events that transpired at that point would have undoubtedly been drastically different.

I can only guess if anyone outside that place had a clue when those exclamations of mirth became the desperate screams of the helpless begging for their very lives.

Ang hirap.

ng walang nakakaintindi.

Bitter pattering.

There is nothing wrong with being bitter sometimes. Remember, medicines usually tastes bitter but it makes you feel well.

Anyways there is something to that, one is literal and the other is metaphorical. I believe being bitter emotionally prevents letting go and prolongs agony.

While bitter medicine speeds letting go of sickness and shortens agony.

Same word, but are very opposite in sense. Just a thought. ;)

Pagkabigo.

Ayon hindi ko naman alam paano sisimulan to pero ayan lumang style na tong ginagawa ko gumagana naman eh. May pang intro. Anyway, these past few weeks sobrang daming nangyari. Madami dami din akong nasa isip na gusto ko sanang iblog. Yung iba nasulat ko na ayoko lang i-publish kasi nakakahiya lang din minsan. Baka kung ano pa isipin ng mga makakabasang kakilala ko. Sobrang frustrated ako sa mga pinagsusulat ko hindi ko kayang ibahagi. Pakiramdam ko kasi hindi ako maiintindihan ng mga tao. Siguro ako din ang may problema kaya hindi nila ako maintindihan. Sobrang daming frustrations. Frustrations o pagkabigo. Ano ba to bakit kailangan pa may ganito. Dito ko naisip bakit nga ba nagbibigo tayo sa buhay buhay natin. May naisip akong tatlong siguro pinakadahilan na din bakit tayo nabibigo o ika nga nafufrustrate.

Ang pinakauna para sa akin ay ang maling panahon na ikinabubuhay natin. Ibig kong sabihin ay yung mga taong nabubuhay sa nakaraan at nabubuhay sa hinaharap. Siguro lahat ng tao pinagdadaanan ito. Sa dinami ng mga masasaklap na pangyayari na nakaraan ng isang tao. Isinasakripisyo mo yung sarili mo ngayon hindi ka makagalaw ng maayos hindi ka makaisip ng tama dahil sa nangyari sa nakaraan. Nasisira ang kasalukuyan pati hinaharap natin dahil sa masyado nating pag-iisip sa nakaraan. Yung mga pag-iisip na paano kaya kung ganito, paano kaya kung ganon, paano kung hindi ko, paano kung.... at marami pang iba. Siguro wala naman masama kung isipin natin kaya lang hindi dapat tayo mabuhay sa nakaraan. Tama lang na magbalik tanaw tayo, malungkot, matuwa at kung ano pa man sa ating nakaraan. Sana gawin na lang natin tong inspirasyon para magpatuloy sa buhay hindi maging balakid sa atin. Marami rin naman mga tao na sobrang nabubuhay sa hinaharap. Ipon dito, ipon doon. Tipid dito, tipid doon.  Asan na ang pera nakatago tago lang ng tago. Para sa hinaharap may pang gala at pang puntang ibang bansa. Ngunit pagdating naman ng panahon hindi na kayang makalakad hindi na kayang kumilos at maglakbay pa. Ginamit ang lakas ng katawan upang kumayod ng kumayod lamang nakakalimutan na ang sarili. Kaya't nagiging miserable o nabibigo tayo sa ngayon. Sabi nga nila "Live for today. Dream for tomorrow. Learn from the past." at gaya din ng sabi sa KungFuPanda " You are too concerned with what was and what will be. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift, that's why it's called the present." 

Ang ikalawa naman ang expectations o yang pagaasam. Dahil dyan maraming ng nabigo. Sa mga magulang na nageexpect sa kanilang mga anak. Ano ba namana ng kakayahan ng inyong anak. Mapipilit pa ninyo ang hindi niya gusto at magaasam kayo ng mataas? Maraming mga anak ang natatakot na baka hindi niya mapasaya ang kanilang mga anak dahil alam nilang sila ay inaasahan ng kanilang mga magulang. Dahil dito sa takot na ito, hindi makakilos ng tama at madalas lalong nasisira ang agos ng buhay. Madalas kapag hindi nakamtam ng anak ang inaasahan sa kanila ng mga magulang ay galit at palo ang inaabot. At ang mga anak nama'y umaasang lagi silang maiintindihan ng kanilang mga magulang. Umaasang maging tama ang mga maling ginagawa na wala naman silang kamuang-muang. Umaasang hindi sila papagalitan natin sa kamalian dahil alam nilang nagenjoy lang naman. Umaasang ibibigay lang lahat sa kanila at mananatiling malakas ang mga magulang habang panahon. Sana wag nalang tayo masyado mag expect. Hindi naman masama huwag lang yung sobra sobra. Hindi lang ito sa pamilya. Nangyayari din ito sa mga relasyon at mga pagkakaibigan. Mahirap hindi umasa pero kaya din naman natin na sabihin na lang kung ano yung saloobin na atin. Hindi yung kapag hindi natin natamasa yung inaasahan natin ay masisira tayo, mabibigo at masasaktan ang parehong tao. Pero huwag din natin kalimutan, sa sense na ang expectation na yan at isang flipside ng obligation; Kapag ang isang tao ay may obligasyon sa iyo, you usually have an expectation that that obligation will be fulfilled. Anyways medyo malalayo na at naiintindihan na naman ang punto. At sabi mga ni William Shakespeare - "Expectation is the root of all heartache"

At ang huli naman ay ang "unopenness." Madalas nakakalimutan natin ito, ang maging open sa mga bagay bagay. Masyado tayong nabubulad na sa kung ano lang ang tanggap sa atin. Tanggap sa lipunan, pamilya o social norms. Sana bigyan natin ang sarili natin ng lawak ng pag-iisip. Para sa ilang mga pagkakataon mahahayaan natin ang ating sarili na makapagisip sa mga bagay bagay. Hindi na lang tayo basta basta mabibigo dito. Magkaroon tayo ng openness to God's grace. O kung sino man ang iyong pinaniniwalaan. Iisa lang din naman iyan na nagbibigay ng biyaya rin.

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep.

My own eyes try to sleep, but they don't. They stay wide awake as time snarls forward and silence drops down, like measured thought.

intertwine

me and you whispering 

of ripple-wind and faerie wing

me and you undaunted

by our joyful scarring

me and you of twisting fates

in corridors of time

silence is the fire 

that speaks to us in tongues

what is tomorrow it may never come

what is yesterday is now done

for we always were

we always will

we always are

we always intertwine

me and you finally 

beholden grace

in our eyes

in our hands

unfolding space

The Great Flood 08/07/2012

NOAH ...

It is the year 2012 and Noah lives in the PHILIPPINES.The Lord speaks to Noah and says: "In one year I am going to make it rain and cover the whole Earth with water until all is destroyed. But I want you to save the righteous people and two of every kind of living thing on the earth. Therefore, I am commanding you to build an Ark."

In a flash of lightning, God delivered the specifications for an Ark. Fearful and trembling, Noah took the plans and agreed to build the Ark. "Remember," said the Lord, "You must complete the Ark and bring everything aboard in one year." Exactly one year later, a fierce storm cloud covered the earth and all the seas of the earth went into tumult. The Lord saw Noah sitting in his front yard weeping. "Noah." He shouted, "Where is the Ark?" "Lord please forgive me!" cried Noah. "I did my best but there were big problems.

First,
I had to get a Mayor's permit for construction and your plans "did not comply with the codes".
I had to hire their "engineering firm" and "redraw" the plans.
Then I got into a fight with Municipal Fire Safety Inspector over whether or not the Ark needed a fire sprinkler system and extinguishers. Then my neighbours objected, claiming I was violating zoning ordinances by building the Ark in my front yard, so I had to get a permit from the municipal planning office.

The Municipal Planning office told me to get a barangay clearance. But when I went to the Barangay Captain, he said I should first get a permit from the municipal planning office. I got confused.

I had problems getting enough wood for the Ark, because there was a ban on cutting trees to protect the Monkey-Eating Eagle. I finally convinced the DENR that I needed the wood to save the eagles. However, the DENR won't let me catch any eagles. So, no eagles. The carpenters formed a union and went out on strike. I had to negotiate a settlement with the KMU. Now I have 16 carpenters on the Ark, but still no eagles. When I started rounding up the other animals, I got sued by an animal rights group. They objected to me only taking two of each kind
aboard.

Just when I got the suit dismissed, the DENR again notified me that I could not complete the Ark without filing an environmental impact assessment on your proposed flood. They didn't take very kindly to the idea that they had no jurisdiction over the conduct of the Creator of the universe.

Then the DPWH demanded a map of the proposed new flood plan. I sent them a globe. Right now, I am trying to resolve a complaint filed with the DOLE that I am practicing discrimination by not taking godless, unbelieving people aboard!

The BIR has seized all my assets, claiming that I'm building the Ark in preparation to flee the country to avoid paying taxes. I just got a notice from the BIR that I owe some kind of user tax and failed to register the Ark as a recreational watercraft. The NBI and ISAFP each wanted a piece of the action alleging that the Ark would be used by GMA to escape.

The PNP on the other hand insists that Mr. Arroyo might use the Ark to flee to the USA. Upon hearing my building the Ark, Congress did what they always do formed a fact-finding committee. I'm not worried about that though because they've never had anything done anyway.

Finally the Senate got the courts to issue a TRO against further construction of the Ark, saying that since God is flooding the earth, it is a religious event and therefore unconstitutional. I really don't think I can finish the Ark for another 10 or 16 years!"

Noah wailed. The sky began to clear, the sun began to shine and the seas began to calm. A rainbow arched across the sky. Noah looked up hopefully. "You mean you are not going to destroy the earth, Lord?"

"No," said the Lord sadly...."They are already doing that."

Nothing really. Mema.

“We’re born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we’re not alone.”

- Orson Welles.

//
I don't know what to say, really...
//

Everywhere you go, perfection
Follows you the wrong direction
And you will never see it for
You get all that you need and more
You see it, you want it
You find it, it's yours.
But you can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Choose the moods that you fake when you want
You said your life needed something special
Then where it's at, yeah
Well aren't you glad?
The only one of 5, exception
The child of your pride is deception
And on your list of things to do
Is make me fall in love with you
You find one, you want one
Cause I'm one, who plays, yeah
But you can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Choose the moods that you fake when you want
You said your life needed something special
Which you don't have, yeah
You can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Rest and wake any way that you want
You said your life needed something special
Well, here I am, yeah
Well, aren't you glad?

thefooo.

This is the part where I hate the most.
I hate my life. who cares? no one could ever understand myself.
Here I am again talking with  myself in the middle of the road.
I dont care much about anything but one thing's for sho
i hate myself for being like this and i hate myself for not being understood by anyone
even my family. So here i am hiding what i am  feeling.
i really really suck. no one would ever appreciate a guy like me.
what the hell i'm doing here. i dont belong here.
this sucks. more than this many people would think about this as a shit.
as an overreacting shit about life. well i accept that. sorry.
sorry about everything.
my life's a mistake.
this sucks.
i dont have any point. i wish i could bring myself home.
i dunno where i am right now. i dont care about this raging vehicles towards me.
i wish i could fade away.
feeling dont have any reasons at all.
i suck at everything.
no one would care about it.
i suck that's it. sorry. :|

Shandelzare

Actually I've posted this way back before. But got to place it here for my friend.
So there I got to think of my other friend's story about his ex and what happened. Reading his ex's blog which he shared to me.
I come to think about being bitter with ex-partners or whatever or being bitter to the "newone" of your ex.

Some actually wants revenge to what happened.
Actually I also had this feeling, but how can I take revenge with someone i loved? easy as that. Anyways, getting revenge on your Ex will bring you instant satisfaction but do little for your happiness.

There is just an ugliness to it that can change your personality.
Your obsession is founded in the idea you seem to be the only one hurting after the breakup.
What you really need to do is take care of your own feelings and let your Ex go.

If you are interested in how to quit hurting then read this.
It is understandable how you must feel right now.
You got dumped and it doesn't seem to bother them or sort of.
That just adds to the frustration you feel.

You want a quick cure, some satisfaction for how you feel, and you want your Ex to feel as bad as you do.
Truth is that seeking revenge is not going to guarantee you'll get what you were expecting and the best thing to do is to work on your broken heart, moving on, and one day you'll be happy with some one who won't hurt you like your Ex did.

That will be a better feeling then getting revenge now.
Taking out your revenge now you will shackling yourself like a prisoners of your past! This holds you back from experiencing your true Potential as a lover and a person.

You end up carrying that great weight of shame upon your shoulders, and the burdens upon your back.
The grudges and revenge reek havoc in your mind and the ball chained to your leg impedes you growing as a person. Only you hold the power that will let you grow and one of the keys that can set you free but this revenge can take that power from you.

It is easy to feel isolated now that the relationship is over.
You are suffering from the emotional injury left over from the breakup.
It makes you want your Ex to hurt like you do or maybe just get his or her attention.

What you need is to stop yourself from thinking that way.
Get out and go places you never could when you were with your Ex.
Get with friends and talk to them that is what they are there for.
Do it a little bit at a time.

It won't seem like you are making much progress at first but keep trying because the pain will go away.
The satisfaction is only temporary when you try getting revenge on your Ex.
When people obsess over something they seem to over think things because it is constantly on their minds.

You end up believing that revenge is the only way you are going to feel better.
What you really need is to check yourself before you wreck yourself and become a prisoner of the same revenge that was meant for your Ex.

Pursuit of happiness

The pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.

The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like  programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors; like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips  just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about.

Wake Up.

I dream sometimes about flying. It starts out like I’m running really really fast and I’m like super human. And the terrain starts to get really rocky and steep. And then I’m running so fast that my feet aren’t even touching the ground and I’m floating. And it’s like this amazing, amazing realness. I’m free. I’m safe. Then I realize, I am completely alone. And then I wake up.

Peaceful Solitude

As time flows
I refute life's intrinsic woes
and commute to someplace no one goes
as crowded places don't suit
one who knows
peaceful solitude

Happiness

Happiness is always possible and if you let happiness into your life, it will come.

Happiness has correlations with sorrow and that you cannot control when it appears into your life.

Sometimes it can make you lose hope when you feel happiness is 'gone for good' though it is only 'gone for now.'

Don't wait for happiness to come for you, because if you wait for something to come to you and spend so long dedicated to a singular idea, you may miss happiness when it actually passes by.

The same if you're stuck with feeling sad, there's no chance to allow happiness in.

Happiness may also come through enduring a lot of pain but then when the time came you surpassed the pain it'll be wonderful and worthwhile.

Some thoughts on love.

You can’t love without risk. Sometimes, love is a terrible idea, except that it’s not an idea. Sometime love leaves suddenly and it’s as if you were lying to the other person all this time, or they were lying to you. Sometimes you want to be loved back and you think if they’ll just hear your case, if you present the evidence before them as if in a court of law, they will concede to your argument, and love you the way you love them, forever even, and then you’ll both get to be happy. But that’s not how it works. You jump from the plane and hope your parachute opens. The other person is that parachute. So if you can, jump over water, and from not too great of a height.

What?

I'm not the best son that you could ever have. Neither the smartest nor gifted person in any field, and even I fell short to meet your high-sky expectations of what you guys would really want your ideal son to be.

Isip.

Nakakatuwa naman.
Nagiging maayos na ang lahat.



ako na lang yata ang hindi. :)

Gooo.

I like your smile, I like your vibe, I like your style, but that's not why I love you.
I like the way you're such a star, but that's not why I love you.
I like the way you misbehave when we get wasted, but that's not why I love you.
I like how you keep your cool when I am complicate, but that's not why I love you.

You're beautiful but that's not why I love you
I'm not sure you know that the reason I love you,
is you being you, just you.
Yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through
And that's why I love you.

Hey
Do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel too?
Do you need, do you need me?
Do you need me?
I am always here for you.

Loner

I quit, I give up
Nothing’s good enough for anybody else It seems
 Everything is temporary anyway
When the streets are wet
The color slip into the sky
And being alone
Is the best way to be
When I’m by myself it’s
The best way to be
When I’m all alone it’s
The best way to be
When I’m by myself
Nobody else can say

Risk.

By nature, scary. It's uncertain and unpredictable. You're heading off into uncharted territory. You may lose your life savings or lose face. You risk criticism and humiliation, or having to pick up the pieces and start all over again. You're giving up what you know for what might be. The rewards can be great, but so can the cost.

Risks and Photography

Most people are so afraid of losing that they never get in the game, so they can never win. They spend their lives in fear of losing their jobs, and never break out on their own and become billionaires as some other American does every week. Did Mark Zuckerberg founder of Facebook become a billionaire while working for Yahoo? I think not.

It's all about learning to take risks. It's safest in the short term to work for someone else and let them take the risks for you, but long term, you're never going to get rich or famous working for someone else. Heck, when your employer loses the game, you all get fired anyway when he goes out of business, so why would anyone work for someone else? Laziness and fear, that's why, but that's another day's story.

So how does this relate to photography? Simple: the best photos happen only when you take the risks to get them. Just like life, you can't win if you're not even in the game. You have to be willing to lose a few in order to win big.

Holding on, holding on.

Well i just have to consider this,
"Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain."

That's all it's about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn't even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

Don't accept it if someone tells you, "That's not enough to be suicidal about." There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

Think about.

I hate the idea of arguing. The idea of debating is something I like.

I state my opinion, you state yours. I state why i feel that way and you state yours.
In the end if you convince me I can change my opinion and vice versa.

With arguing it's totally different. There is no persuading the other person to see your side of view by backing up your opinion with either fact or some sort of relevant idea as to why you're right.

It's just you spouting your views onto someone. And after all the yelling and screaming or whatever, both of you will walk away frustrated with the same opinions or view that you started with. Such a waste of time and breath.

I approach disagreements totally different. I start out debating the issues with you. Once I see that you are not willing to engage in a simple debate then I just state my case and move on.

There's no need to sit here and go back and forth with you when I know and you know that once it's all said and done, I'm still going to think what I think and you'll still think what you think.

Arguing is pointless. I mean who does that? why argue just to argue? why am I going to waste my time arguing with you when I know I can't change your mind on the subject? I'm about opening people's minds to other things not just ramming my opinion down your throat.

Am I wrong for wanting to know why you feel so strongly about something anyway?
I mean if you feel like Magnum Ice Cream is better than Twin Pops than wouldn't you have some ideas to back it up? Right?

I know there are more serious and/or important issues than ice cream but I just used that as an example so you can get my drift. Plus I have the taste for some DQ mango cheesecake :)) on my brain. :P~

So once again, please don't argue with fools but rather debate with dummies all day... xP

Peace

Spill.

You wear this crown does it make you feel, like everyone is listening hanging on your every word. I'm staring at your insides and i see what's running through you, why won't you ever let this go. You used to be my worst enemy clever and you're thinking of ways to get out of this one. What we had wasn't always easy, what we had wasn't all that bad. Always, i am drawn closer to the end, i will always remember you even through all the worst times that we've had and you were always there for me. Hands down you're the best thing yet that's happened and still everyone listens to you...

EarlyRise - Wasteland

For so many years you were locked away

And you never really got the opportunity

To blossom, and pass on your masterpiece creation

They're so ignorant, they don't understand

You were always longing for a chance

To abandon this wasteland and never have to pretend

Everything's okay

And you're the same as everybody else

So stop apologizing

There's nothing wrong with being different

Despite their accusations

You've always proven that you're better

Take a look around, everything you see

Is their twisted version of reality

They live in, and you've been forced to believe them

Erase your memories from so long ago

Now you're capable of so much more

Just let go, now you know exactly what you're here for

Everything's okay

You're not the same as everybody else

So stop apologizing

There's nothing wrong with being different

Despite their accusations

You've always proven that you're better

:)

It's suffocating to say,

But the female mystique takes my breath away.

So give me a smile or give me a sneer,

'Cause I'm trying to guess here.

You, Yourself, Who else.

You are, of course, nothing without a social order to back her up: family, culture, values and heritage. Even more, what makes us feel good about ourselves is when we accomplish something on a scale bigger than ourselves. The real mountains to climb in life are solitary quests, but we’re not doing it for ourselves. We’re doing it for a collective effort. Instead of individualism, we should view our interaction with society as a sacred role where by doing good, we feel good about ourselves.

But in some case people tend to over look when we have this concept of individualism. Sometimes in our lives we just need ourselves in order to be good. We don't need those fancy crying shoulder friends. Who else would know yourself? They haven't been in your shoes. It's just fine to have time alone. Comforting and seeking peace within yourself.

And also that is why we have this so called freedom. This word requires an object, as in “freedom from something,” and that creates an inherently negative outlook. In order to have freedom, you must get rid of all of those objects. Soon you have nothing but yourself. It makes sense instead to say that you desire independence, or some space in life where you have domain and can experiment, play and create. This space probably doesn't need to be as big as you’d think, since there’s actually not much variation in what most of us do in life.

Anyways can't think of much more. Hope somehow you get the point. hahaha i don't even think there is a good one :p ;)

Love is about.

Love is about who you want…
 But having them is about when.

 Getting off a train when it’s moving,
 and when it has stopped makes a huge difference.

 Dont force yourself to love and commit.

 In your own time, the right love and
the right moment will both fall into place.

 The right love at the wrong time is just as terrible
 as having the shoe of the right size on the wrong foot.

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Your Dreams.

Am I pursuing my dream, or is fear stopping me? What have you always wanted to do? Maybe something you dreamed of as a child but have given up as unrealistic? Maybe something you still want to do but are afraid of failing? What fears are stopping you? And what would be the worst that could happen if you overcame those fears and pursued your dream?

Who do you love?

Who do I love, and what am I doing about it? When someone dies you realize that you never know how much time you have with the people you love. They can go at any time — as can you. And so you must make the most of this time.

If you aren’t spending time with the people you love, change that. If you are holding a grudge against a family member, let it go and reconcile. If you’ve done something to hurt a loved one, ask for forgiveness. Drop the pride, and make up. If you haven’t seen someone in awhile, call them now to set up a date.

Fear.

No sleep today. Can't even rest when the suns down. No time. Theres not enough and nobodys watchin me now.  When we were children we'd play Out in the streets just dipped in fate When we were children we'd say That we don't the meaning of Fear, fear, fear, Fear, fear, fear We dont know the meaning of..  Wish I Didn't know the meaning of...

We all have.

we all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny.

Hello there!

These past few days wala talaga ako sa mood magsulat. Feeling ko wala naming malaking even na nangyayari sa buhay ko to blog about. Feeling ko, boring ang buhay ko. Kaya wala kong maisulat. Pero I think, mali ako to think that way. Hindi naman natin kailangang magkaroon ng malaking event o happening in life para ma-consider na hindi nga talaga boring ang buhay. Na okay ka. Na kontento ka. O kaya naman, na masaya ka. Dapat, sine-celebrate pa rin natin ang buhay whatever happens. Kaya dapat kahit feeling ko nothing’s good or eventful ang nangyayari sa everyday life ko, I should have a reason to write something ’cause imposible na walang nangyari sa buhay sa bawat minutong nagdadaan.

Ewan ko nga ba, bakit minsan I think that way. That, my life’s boring. Kapag tinatanong ako ng friends ko, ‘O, what’s new?’ , wala akong masabi. Kasi wala naman talagang bago. Pero siguro rin, ine-equate ko yung mga life changing events or happenings sa buhay para lang masabi ko na, ‘yeah, may something new sa buhay ko..’. Na siguro dapat hindi ganito yung attitude ko.

The reason I posted this is because I’ve been noticing nga na mostly puro rants and complaints lang yata narerelate ko. Puro negative vibes in life. Na even ako nasusuya na rin hehehe:) Though I acknowledge the fact that what you feel at the moment whether it’s anger, annoyance, disappointments, happiness, etc., those are valid feelings kasi it’s based on one’s own encounter and experience. That I can rant about them all I want pero at the end of the day, I should try to get over it and move on. There are so many things in life na mas maganda i-appreciate. Well, actually ganon naman ako. Kaya nga sometimes when I write something negative, then friends will ask me about it, usually sinasabi ko, ‘wala na yon. okay na’ko.’ Siguro lang talaga, we need an outlet to release and this is one outlet for me. Marami lang talagang facts in life na sometimes hindi maganda. Pero okay lang, part yon eh. Usually sinapsyche ko lang sarili ko. Na, this is just today, just one day sa loob ng isang taon, marami pang mga araw..marami pang bukas. Well, enough of this. hehehehe :3